Weekly To-dos

One of my favorite bloggers does a weekly to-do list that I feel like it really centers around working on becoming a better persons as a whole. She hits it all; marriage, motherhood, home and herself.

They say goals and to-dos aren’t reachable unless you write them down so I figured I would start a weekly to-do list to work on.

Marriage & Home:
- Go on a movie date with The Mr.
- Try a new recipe
- Stay current on weekly cleaning calendar

 Self:
- Continue to track all food, even the bad
- Get some sort of activity in, 3 times
- Read each night before going to bed

Baby Mac:
- Buy hangers for her clothes
- Wash her clothing
- Work on her nursery and find wall decorations

My plan is update each week with what I’ve completed off my to-do list and make a new one.

Here’s to a new week and happy to-doing!

Becoming a Health Conscious Mother

Becoming a mother is probably one of the scariest thing I’ve ever done in my life. First, I get to grow a child inside of me and worry everyday that I’m not doing something that could harm the baby or myself. Then I get to give birth to the baby and then I get to take MY child home and care for her, feed her, clothe her and hope and pray I teach her right from wrong. (????) What in the world?!

After all those worries, I then get to make sure that I teach her to always love herself no matter what society may say and no matter how she feels about her body. The Mr. and I get to instill morals and traditions in her that will eventually make her who she will become.

Motherhood scares the shit out of me. However, at the same time I can not wait to be a mother. I do know that everything she learns, she will learn from me (and The Mr.) and she will always lead by example.

Weight Watchers taught me a lot about eating healthy, making smart choices when it comes to being active and learning to lose weight at a healthy pace. Over the year and half that I faithfully followed Weight Watchers, I became very health conscious and learned to trust my body in the process.

Pregnancy really threw me for a loop, I tried so hard to continue to eat healthy and follow Weight Watchers but for the first trimester, I could not stomach anything healthy. Yes, I’ve gained more weight then I wanted to and I haven’t eaten as healthy as I should, but the difference from before Weight Watchers to now, is that I know what I’m doing and what I’m putting into my body.

Just like before, I try to make a conscious effort everyday to continue to be healthy. The Mr. and I already decided and made a pact that as soon as I get cleared from my doctor, we will get back on Weight Watchers and continue to follow a healthy lifestyle. I want to be able to show our child how to eat healthy while still enjoying good food. I want her parents to be that example for her.

More then anything else, I hope that we can teach her that being healthy is far more important then what society says we should look like. I hope that she sees that healthy comes in all shapes and sizes and that sometimes it’s okay to work for healthiness.

One of my reasons for losing weight and learning to be healthy was so I could become pregnant and have a healthy pregnancy and I’ve been able to do that (so far). Now one of my main reasons for wanting to continue this lifestyle is so I can remain healthy and teach my children a healthy lifestyle. Life always has a funny way of working out and most of the time, making a 360º.

learning to love myself more…..

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Everyday I continue to work on learning to love myself more and more. It wasn’t some idea that I woke up with and decided from that moment I was going to love every inch of my body. Learning to love myself for every part of me has taken some work, especially mentally. I really had to train my mind to get rid of the negative and focus on the positive things about my body.

I believe the process started when I started losing weight, I went from being completely nonactive to working out 5 days a week. My body hurt, all over. It hurt to move a lot of the time but slowly and surely, I realized it felt good to move in those ways. I went from barely being able to walk on the treadmill to running sometimes. How could I not love a body that could do that?

Once I got pregnant and my body really started to change and the scale started to creep up again and my pant size got a little bigger, I had to refocus my mindset and remind myself that it was okay to still love my changing body. I still look in the mirror daily and am amazed that I can harbor a growing fetus and eventually my body will go into labor and I’ll deliver that baby. How could I not love a body that can do that?

I am in no way perfect and it’s still a mental battle everyday to truly love myself. I still have faults and I still make mistakes that make me want to not fully love myself. There are some days where I really have to talk myself up and remind myself how far I’ve come (those days consist of lots of Pinterest quotes).

In a world where we are told to not love ourselves if we aren’t exactly what the BMI chart says we should be, or we don’t look exactly like society says we should look like, or we don’t dress in a certain way; loving ourselves can be so hard but everyday I try.

Self Love

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Over the past couple of months I’ve been on this self love kick. I understand all the demands of the world and everyones need and want to get fit and healthy. Don’t get me wrong, I completely understand why someone needs to get healthy and am no way ever going to stop trying to improve myself in that way. However, I do feel like people need to learn to love themselves, no matter what shape or size your body may be in.

I believe it truly is a mind game and something you have to believe in and fight for. I believe for one to be truly happy in friendships and relationships, you have to love yourself. Some may say that loving yourself includes getting healthy and I agree, but the self love I am talking about is deeper then that.

It took a long time but I went from completely hating my body, with or without clothes, to loving my body for what it looks like and what it can do. I used to hate my hair, it was so curly and sometimes frizzy to loving it because of its curls and fluffiness. There were so many things I hated about myself, inside and out, but I quickly realized that being so negative about myself made others be negative about me and I didn’t want that.

Learning to love myself for who I was in that moment helped me to love myself enough to focus on health and fitness. When I learned to love myself with all my faults, I really learned who I was and how to truly be happy.

….on being plus size and pregnant

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Last time I posted I was faithfully following Weight Watchers and giving Simple Start a try. Fast forward 6 months, and I’m currently 22 weeks pregnant and enjoying everything that comes with pregnancy and expecting our first child.

Since becoming pregnant, I’ve learned a whole heck of a lot about what society says about plus size pregnant woman and what they think pregnancy should look like. It’s been very eye opening and it’s something I’ve become a little obsessed with.

I’ve been very lucky, I’ve had a very easy pregnancy so far. Absolutely no major morning sickness, I was just very tired and sometimes nauseated during the first trimester. I had to train myself to eat, which sounds kind of funny but for a year and a half, I taught myself to only eat when I was hungry and to really listen to my body. All of a sudden I was pregnant and I would go from content to starving in .5 seconds and if I didn’t eat soon enough, I would feel so sick. That was a learning curve but I quickly learned how to eat again because I hated feeling sick.

My second trimester has also been a breeze. I’ll have days where I’m more tired then normal and days where I’ll be a little nauseated and just feel icky but other then that, I can not complain. I started to be more active during the second trimester too, I joined a prenatal yoga class and just recently started in on a water aerobics class.

It wasn’t until the second trimester that I really started to dig deeper into being plus size and pregnant. It’s very sad to me that “the world” (aka: society) can see being plus size such a horrible thing but then you add pregnancy to the equation and you’re shit out of luck. Because I’m overweight and pregnant, I’ll automatically be classified as high risk, that I’ll have gestational diabetes, that I shouldn’t gain more then 15 pounds and that every other horrible thing that can happen during pregnancy, I’ll have.

All of that is far from the truth and it pisses me off that we have to put up with that stereotype just because of our weight.

I just wish that the world would see a plus size pregnant woman the same as a normal pregnant woman and that they would just remember that we too are growing life inside of us and that it’s just as an amazing experience for us as it is anyone else.

Simple Start Day 1 & 2

Day two of Simple Start is on it’s way out and I’m feeling pretty good about it and the choices I’ve been making.

I decided to make a few tweaks so that way it I can fit Simple Start into my life and make it work for me. A few months ago, I started to drink Shakeology and have found that I really like it and think it has helped me a lot. It has a ton nutrition in it and has been proven to be very healthy so I decided that I will not be counting that towards my weekly points. I figured that since the Weight Watcher smoothies are power foods then my smoothies can be too. I also decided that fat free ranch is a power food. I love ranch and always measure out my servings so even though it may not be listed as a power food, I’m going to count it as one. I told myself that if within the first week I gain or don’t notice a change, I’ll be taking out those tweaks and following Simple Start to a T.

So now, what have I been eating? I’ll show you! I decided to take pictures of my meals/snacks for the past two days so you can kind of see what Simple Start looks like. Mind you, I did still measure out my rice, dressing, milk, cottage cheese and so on because I want to keep going with that habit and don’t mind taking the time. My Weight Watchers week start on Wednesday’s so my weekly points are a little thrown off, but it will come together tomorrow. I went out on Saturday and used most of my weekly points and I started Simply Start on Monday so it’s out of whack.

Anyway, here we go….

I started Simply Start with having used all of my weekly points (49). From last Wednesday to Sunday, I had earned 25 activity points and used 7 of those during the weekend.

Day 1) Breakfast – I forgot to take a picture of it, but I had 1/2 cup egg beaters (equals 2 eggs), slice of Fiber One 100 cal Honey Wheat Bread, and a Dannon Light & Fit Greek yogurt

Lunch – salad with  chopped veggies, extra lean turkey breast, fat free cheddar cheese and fat free ranch dressing

Snack – fat free cottage cheese with pineapple

Dinner- brown rice, apricot chicken and a salad topped with fat free ranch. The apricot chicken was 2 points because of the glaze.

Snack- shredded wheat, strawberries and non fat milk

I ended the day using 2 weekly/ap points, everything else was 100% on the Simple Start plan!

photo 1_2On Monday, I earned another 7 activity points so I started today with using all 49 weekly points and have earned 32 activity points, which I’ve eaten 20 of.

Day 2) Breakfast- 2 scrambled eggs, a little bit of salsa, 1/4 cup spaghetti squash topped with fat free cheddar cheese and a Fiber One original english muffin. On my way to work, I stopped and picked up a sugar free/non fat latte, which is considered a power food.

Lunch- salad with chopped veggies and 1.5 oz tuna salad mixed in with fresh fruit on the side

Snack- Dannon Light & Fit Greek yogurt

Late afternoon snack- 1 slice of Fiber One 100 cal bread toasted, an apple cut up and put on top and then topped with fat free cheddar cheese

Dinner- quinoa, brussel sprouts and shrimp, tomato and zucchini skillet

I did sneak a piece of a Red Vine from the staff lounge this afternoon, but 1 piece is 0 points, so it didn’t come off of my weekly points, but I did track it!

For dessert, I ended up having a Skinny Cow ice cream sandwich which is not a power food (boo) and is 4 points.

So far today, I’ve earned 4 activity points. That makes my weekly totals at having used all 49 of my weekly points and having used 24 of my 36 earned activity points.

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I feel really good about Simple Start. I haven’t been extremely hungry since starting and I noticed today while eating my afternoon snack, that I was really just eating because that’s what I normally do before going to the gym. I ate out of habit and realized I should have really listened to my body instead. Yesterday and today, I didn’t eat my normal morning snack because I was still full until lunch time. In fact, I was full for 5 hours yesterday before needing lunch.

Weigh in day is tomorrow and we’ll see how it goes. I normally do not eat as many weekly or activity points as I do, but we went out on Saturday and I tracked everything that went into my mouth. I’m ready to start a new Weight Watchers week on the right foot and with new points!

To Simple Start or Not?

I sort of kind of hit on the topic of Simple Start/Simply Filling last time I wrote, and I was still on the fence about trying it. Simple Start was built off the same foundation of Simply Filling but was implemented for those who are just starting Weight Watchers or need a change from counting points. They came out with the awesome pamphlet that has 2 weeks worth of meals (breakfast, lunch, dinner and snacks), has a shopping list and gives you ideas on what to use as “indulgence” points.

Simple Start/Simply Filling is pretty simple; you don’t track what you eat, but really focus on portion sizes, listening to your body and fill up on power foods. You get 49 weekly points, that with Simple Start, they encourage you to use 7 points a day on indulgences or foods that are not power foods.

The tracking technique is exactly what it sounds like. You get so many points a day (based on height/weight) and everything you eat has a point value and you track it when you eat it. With tracking, you also get 49 weekly points that you can use how you want.

So here’s the big dilemma….I’ve been tracking for over a year now and I hate change. Simply Filling has been around since I started Weight Watchers, but I never tried it because I didn’t trust myself with portion sizes and didn’t like the idea of only having power foods.

I think Simple Start is great for newbies or people who need a change. I’ve gone back and forth about whether or not I wanted to try it since they introduced that program. I’ve seen people who have had great results with it, new members and even lifetime members. I know for a fact that Weight Watchers would NOT push something they did not believe in themselves and that they knew worked. I just know that I have a hard time with change and trying new things, so I kept pushing it back.

The other day I decided that I have nothing to lose. If I try it and I gain weight, well, I’ll just go back to what I know and lose the weight again. If I try it and I lose weight, well, then Weight Watchers just proves to be even more amazing. So what the heck, right?

So I’m diving in head first and today was my first day officially following Simple Start!!

I promised myself that I’d stick with it for 2 weeks and decide which technique I want to follow after that.

I’ll be back later tonight or tomorrow with a recap on day one and things that I’m twisting to make it work for me.

Wish me luck! I’m nervous!

Week 51 Weigh In

Week 51

I’m back for my weekly weigh in update! It’s kind of crazy to me that I’ve been on my journey for over a year (even though I’ve only weighed in 51 times) and I have no intentions on stopping. I know now that Weight Watchers will be a part of my life forever and that’s something that I’m proud to say. There’s no doubt that Weight Watchers and their amazing program has changed my life for the better.

I’d say that I had a great week, I worked hard, ate right, tracked everything and got my activity in and the scale reflected it.

For awhile, my activity was slacking and I wasn’t getting my workouts in, but one of my goals for this year was to continue to up my exercise and if anything, at least get 30 minutes of walking in each day. So far for 2014, I’ve been successful. However, I do allow two rest days a week because I think it’s really important for my body and mind to get some rest.

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At the first of the year, Weight Watchers introduced an add on to their program called Simply Start, it’s a great way to get started on the program by incorporating all power foods and 7 points of indulgences each day. I think the program is great and though I haven’t started following it, I have included more power foods in my day which I’ve noticed has really helped me stay full and I’m sure has helped the scale continue to go down.

This next week, I plan on continuing to load up on power foods, focus on my work outs and I’m also planning on hiking up Badger Mountain on Saturday in support of the 12th Man and those Seahawks!

Here’s to a great week!!

Finding my Anchor

an·chor (ngkr) n.

1) Nautical A heavy object attached to a vessel by a cable or rope and cast overboard to keep the vessel in place either by its weight or by its flukes, which grip the bottom. 2) A rigid point of support, as for securing a rope. 3) A source of security or stability. 4) Sports a. An athlete, usually the strongest member of a team, who performs the last stage of a relay race or other competition. b. The person at the end of a tug-of-war team. 5) An anchorperson.

When I first started my journey, there was a meeting about finding your anchor. Clearly, we all know what an anchor is, and if you don’t, I provided that information for you. Anyway, I remember sitting back and really letting myself find that one thing that would hold me down and keep me afloat.

I went through a list of things; it wasn’t my health because really, I didn’t have much wrong with me. I didn’t have high blood pressure or diabetes. It wasn’t for my family (sorry guys) because I needed to do it for me. Yes, my family supports me and has my back, I just can’t always depend on them to help through those bad days or weeks. I looked at other peoples weight loss stories and while they help me, I couldn’t see myself always getting my motivation from them.

I remember my leader suggesting it be something that meant something to you or something that caused that “aha” moment and brought you into the doors of Weight Watchers. As soon as she said it, I knew what it would be. It was a picture taken of me on 12/31/12 and it was the moment where I was disgusted with what I saw and I knew I needed to change.

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That picture holds a lot of meaning to me. I look at it and automatically get proud of how far I’ve come, but I also know that I have a long ways to go. I look at that picture and see someone who I never want to be again, but everyday is a battle on not letting myself be her. I look at that picture and see someone who was always happy but now, I’m happier and even more grateful for life.

That picture is my anchor and it keeps me afloat on those hard days.

There’s one other thing that keeps me going and reminds me to just take it one day at it time.

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It says “One bite at a time. One decision at a time.” I wear it daily as a reminder that it’s a journey and not a race and to allow myself to go one step at a time. A blogger that I follow sales them and you can get one too from here.

Finding your anchor and staying afloat is important when it comes to weight loss. It’s okay to drift off a little, because even when a ship is anchored down, it still drifts around the sea, but it remains in a general area. Use that as a key to weight loss. It won’t be a perfect journey and trust me, you will drift a little but coming back afloat is what will get you though it!

I lied.

Well, there’s no doubt that I suck at posting on here. I really do try to make an effort to blog every once in awhile but it seems that when I have plans to, something comes up and I just never get around to doing it.

If you aren’t following me on Facebook or Instagram, then you’re missing out. I update there on a regular basis.

Anyway, as of Wednesday (1/8/14) I have lost 80.6 pounds. The Mr. is doing amazing too and has lost 85.6 pounds. Together, we’ve lost 166.2 pounds! What the?!?! That blows my mind sometimes!

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The picture on the left is from 2012, and it was the last picture we took together before starting our journey. The picture on the right is exactly a year later. It’s crazy what a year will do!

I really will make more of a conscious effort to blog more and maybe even post some recipes or something. Maybe.